Mom, Dad, I'm an Androgyne

Mom, Dad, I’m an Androgyne

I’ll say this after my parents question me about my new bracelet, and my lengthening hair.

“No you aren’t, honey,” Mom will say. “Look at you. You’re very masculine. And I know you have a penis.”

Dad will just look at me, puzzled for a moment, and then say in a very exasperated manner, “What?”

At least, that’s how I imagine it will go. I want to come out to them, but I wonder if that’s more trouble than it’s worth. I doubt they know what it means to be an androgyne, and even after explaining it, I dread their reactions. It could be anything from denial to ‘Well, at least he’s not gay’ to ‘Wait, does that mean you’re gay?’ Sigh. I know the possibility of my homosexuality was one of their biggest fears for me, as I grew up. I’m not gay. But even if I was, why would that matter? Why would that be a problem? Because I don’t fit in with how they view life? Because our religion teaches that homosexuality, that sexual deviance is a sin? Or is it simpler than that? Is it because I’m just different?

But then, I’ve always been different, and my family knows that. And the fact that I’m androgyne won’t change the way I act. I suspect, however, that knowing this about me will affect how my parents perceive me, how they interpret everything I do.

sighblargbbqhughaughwtf.

The bottom line:

If I don’t tell my parents about this, I act the way I normally do: a little strange for a ‘typical’ boy, but fun and interesting, as one who sees the world through a different lens, who marches to the beat of his own drum. My parents are happy with this.

If I do tell my parents about this, I still act the way I normally do: a little strange for a ‘typical’ boy, still fun and interesting, but my parents become hyper-aware of my differences, and constantly question why I’m doing this or that. They’ll try to persuade me to be ‘manly’ again. I won’t be happy with this. My parents won’t be happy with this. The rest of my family will look at me as if I were some kind of freak.

…why am I considering this again?

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